He who has ears

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That is what I hear.

I went to an audiologist to hear news that I already knew. For years I’ve been able to hear but unable to understand half of the time. I have mild hearing loss in low frequencies (such as music and vowel sounds), but my hearing loss is moderate to severe in the higher ranges. I don’t hear consonants or whispers at all. I don’t hear soft voices. I just don’t hear them. I can’t. Today, I had to swallow that fact and decide that it was time to do what needed to be done in order to hear what the world is saying.

I almost broke down in tears when I saw my audiograph which showed how deteriorated my hearing was.

I also pondered the hard things of election. My hearing loss is genetic and hereditary. I didn’t do anything to cause my hearing to fail. My eardrums work fine, but the nerves that carry the signals to my brain don’t work at 100%. It seemed more real today that God is ultimately responsible for my senses malfunctioning.

Moses, whose brother I am named after, had similar problems.

Moses said to the LORD, “O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”

The LORD said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” Exodus 4:10-12

Want to know who cripples people? God. Yes, blame God.

You can also thank Him that you’re alive. Humanity, enlightened humanity, will soon approach a day where terminating birth will be praised to prevent defects and make our health care system more efficient. The Lord, however, doesn’t see things in such a way.

Brothers, think of what you were when you were called.
Not many of you were wise by human standards;
not many were influential; not many were of noble birth.
But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise;
God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.
He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things – and the things that are not – to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him.
It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
Therefore, as it is written: “Let him who boasts boast in the Lord.”
I Corinthians 1:26-30

God chose the weak to shame the strong. God chooses the despised so that no one can boast before God.

God made me half blind, half deaf, and half insane. He also chose to save a despised, disfunctioning wretch like me.